How to make lemonade with shriveled lemons...

I suppose life is what you make of it. Sometimes life deals you a winning hand and sometimes you feel like should have folded the moment the cards were dealt. I have to wonder: the way my life turned out was predestined, or was it random? or what could i have done to make better choices? I lost my job in 1993 (downsized) divorced in 1994 after 9 1/2 years of marriage to a man with a peter pan complex. he said the same while i grew up. he was a musician, he like the bar scenes, the weekend drinking/pot use. i did not. I had 2 children to guide. He had 2 major car accidents that dealt with alcohol, increasingly drug use and the lack of desire to work a regular job verses playing in a band. after much heartache, i divorced. i am catholic and to me marriage was a commitment for life. The divorce came and went and i moved on to the next stage of the "no child support...working 3 jobs...etc but i survived...in 2000 met a good man. Jack...after 16 months we married in June 2001..my second his 1st.and for over 3 years was happy...then tragedy struck..may 10 2004 he had a stroke..